“I will not leave you orphaned”, said Jesus. At some point we all want or even need to hear these words. They speak directly to some of our greatest fears and challenges: abandonment and isolation, loneliness, vulnerability. They remind us that we are not destined to walk this earth without an identity or direction. We do not stand alone. To be sure there are seasons of life, moments, when the transitions, changes, and tragedies can leave us feeling as orphans.
Whether spoken or unspoken, the questions begin. What will I do now? Who will love, help, and guide me? Who stands on my side? What will become of me? Those are the orphan’s questions. Anyone who has ever loved and lost – a spouse, a child, a friend, security, hope – knows the orphan’s questions. These are the questions I imagine running through the heads and hearts of the disciples in today’s gospel.
“I will not leave you orphaned”, promised Jesus. That is the promise. How strange that must have sounded to the disciples. In the same conversation Jesus tells them that he is leaving and coming. Leaving and coming sure sound like opposites. Leaving and coming. Presence and Absence. That is what Jesus has set before us. That tension confronts us with the question of whether Jesus, for us, is a past memory or a present reality, a sentimental story that makes us feel good or a living experience that challenges, guides, and nurtures our life. He is leaving, but the Holy Spirit is coming, his Spirit.
According to Jesus, the answer to that question is determined by love that is revealed and fulfilled through the Holy Spirit in keeping his commandments. The commandment to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength, and to love our neighbor as ourselves. Keeping the commandments is our access to Jesus’ promise that we will not be left orphaned. The Holy Spirit helps us in keeping the commandments, which makes us present to the already ongoing reality of Jesus’ presence and love abiding within us. “I will not leave you orphaned”, said Jesus.
– Fr. Louis-Martin Cloutier, SJ

